Last Published on January 13th

To quote my littlest nephew, "What the what???"

In the back of my mind, I kept on thinking... blog. You should blog. Come on, Joy, you have all of these emotions bundling up, things to say and share and give back... blog... do it... BLOG!!! But I didn't listen to the little voice inside my head. Instead I lived my life and went on and moved about and went crazy and found other ways to deal with things. The funny thing is, when I pulled this up, all I saw was "Last posted on January 13, 2013" and I really have no idea what i blogged about. What was it, blogging friends?

C'est la vie, I will update you anyway... sorry if I overlap (although chances are you've forgotten, too!).

hmmm... I took a break in January. A break from weighing in... a break from the dreaded scale... I hit this point where my feet wouldn't move another step on an elliptical. I couldn't push myself. I hit the proverbial wall and just the thought of getting on a scale made me want to vomit.

I wish I could say things have been great since, but unfortunately they haven't at all. I went up on the scale (due to muscle gain and water retention) and I'm still trying to get rid of that extra number. I know it wasn't a bad way to gain it, but it's still frustrating when you feel like you're backtracking. Going up on the scale was not what I was looking forward to. But since then I've gone down.

Although I did miss another weigh in... not by choice, though, or by wall hitting. But by actual vomiting. It was a rough few days (and day and a half off of work) and for several days I barely ate anything. It was less than stellar. Now I'm fighting with myself to get back to the gym... I got so used to not being there and my evenings are so much longer! ;o)

But I fight and continue... I learn and freak out at the thought of standing on a scale, but I do it anyway...

Little Victories

In conjunction with the last post where I talked about wanting to run and stuff...

Treadmills were rough on the knees... and the back... after the inflamed disk, I've been VERY cautious with anything that caused an impact on my joints (read: I haven't walked or been on a treadmill or used anything other than an elliptical in a very long time.

Until last night.

Last night I did a 15 minute warm up and cool down on the treadmill... I signed up to do the Nashville Color Run in March and I figured I needed my body to start getting ready for it.

Today? NO PAIN!!!!!

I mean other than the aches from an early morning Zumba class ;)

13 Pounds and Running

So random, right?

I hit a milestone that I'm still uncomfortable really talking about in just under 13 pounds... how that for vague? But I told myself a few months ago that about 13 pounds from now, that when I start trying to run again. It's about 45 pounds off of my 5'6" frame (I'm down 33.2 as of right now) which (according to "them") is like taking 135 pounds off of my knees...

I may have fought myself from using an explicative in my head just then (sorry Mom and Dad)

I think that's the first time I've done that calculation and I realized what that total calculation will be in the end... *phew*...

Back to running... I've always been determined to do it. I've attempted and stopped a few times in the last couple of years (shin splints, laziness, knees); but this time I really want to get it going. I've read lots and lots of articles and I've realized that it's one of the most effective workouts and frankly, I feel like runners are the epitome of healthy.

Don't ask me why I think that... it doesn't even make sense in my own mind... I think maybe I've been jealous for years of all of those people that put on a pair of shoes and just go.............

I'm trying to convince myself that I can be down those pounds in the next month if I really buckle down, and then I run.

Who's with me?

emotional and crazy

... so this should be a fun post! *sigh*

My heart is hurting a lot. For the town of Newtown, CT and for all of the Americans who are wanting to adopt from Russia.

I'm kind of a train wreck.

As of before I came home for Christmas I was down 31.2 lbs which is exciting... I was probably more excited about that .2 than any other weight loss before that.

And now I'm home for Christmas and if she were here, W (my nutritionist) would be hitting me... but not literally...

I've been to the gym, though not as frequently as if I were home, and when I've been eating meals they've been healthy, mostly... except for that one time I met up with some of the guys for dinner and drinks at this new delicious New Orleans restaurant here in town. It's called French Quarter and if you live in the western suburbs of Chicago, you should check it out... for realz!! It's not really diet friendly, though.........

Don't tell W about the 1 1/3 beignets..... sssshhhhhhhhh...

Otherwise, I think I'll just get in trouble for all of the missed meals.... *sigh* better do better starting today, I go back to the doc on Thursday.

I'll start with that yummy stew my dad has in the crock pot for dinner...... it looks and smells delicious and he had an awesome sous chef ;)

Holidays

I was doing great with the Christmas season, even with parties every day of every weekend. I'm up to 31 pounds lost. AWESOME.

But I'm SO nervous about this weeks weigh in. Last week was crazy. I was getting over being sick, I went to see Aerosmith (*sigh*), and then I had a party at my house on Sat and Sun and I had to work Sat..... I haven't been to  the gym since last week..... Wed?... maybe? And while I don't think I've done bad with eating, I've barely tracked anything and I had a couple of days that I ate 1 meal and maybe a snack?

I get in just as much trouble for the missing meals as anything else.

We'll see what Wednesday morning brings.........

My Secret Goal

I had a secret goal that I didn't tell anyone. I wanted to lose 25 pounds by Thanksgiving. Yesterday was the first time I saw my parents since I started at Beckman's & I wanted the loss to be… awesome?

Challenge complete! 25 pounds down!!!

On a side note, way to go today Rachel and Gail and all of the other 20 people I knew and hundreds of others who ran/walked the Borodash!!! You're awesome!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving =)

Still

I'm still annoyingly food obsessed =o\ Tracking out a day's worth of meals every single morning and not allowing mysellf to change it. But this week... *phew*

This is Thanksgiving week... and today is Monday... and I've figured out all of my calories for Thanksgiving day.

All of them.

I've also found a recipe for fresh cranberry sauce made with stevia... excitement!

My parents are SUPER supportive of me and they're coming here for Thanksgiving this year, and they're ok with skipping mashed potatoes and stuffing (although I will miss them), but I refused to give up pumpkin pie!

Turkey, cranberry sauce, steamed veggies, pumpkin pie, and fat free redi whip.

check, check, check, and double check!