Embarrassed.

That’s me… I've have this blog for a while that no one could read. It's my embarrassed self trying to decide if I really want to talk publicly about losing weight and being healthy. It's about being transparent to others.

Terrifying.

I have to lose weight. Have to. I’m unhealthy and I’m tired of being tired all the time. I’m tired of feeling unattractive all the time and I’m really don’t want to die of a heart attack in the next 20 years. I’m really ashamed of how much weight I have gained since high school. My family is pretty fit, and I used to be.

I have a goal. It's somewhat crazy and probably unrealistic and I'll try my best to talk about it in the future. My goal is to blog thru it. Through the highs and lows, the excitement and sadness, the loss and plateau's.

I blog. I like to write. This is what I do... Hopefully losing weight is what I do, too.

So here I go… my attempt at losing it…