Making Decisions

So, blog friends, it turns out I'm friends with some people who are awesome (yes you... bat yourself on the back for me... did you do it?... good...)

But more tangibly, a coworker cooked and pureed me some food because of this lack of eating thing (she was concerned with my nutrition... because she's ridiculously thoughtful in a way that puts me to shame). So, chicken and squash and veg and more. So much better for me than baby food.

Also, my new church houses some new friends one of whom, it turns out, is a dietitian (who actually went to school with my current nutritionist); and someone in my small group is a personal trainer... just found that out on Wednesday. I've already gotten some tips from each of them because they're awesome and my friends. You see, this stuff going on with my teeth isn't cheap and I'm starting to think financially towards the future (like a good little budgeter - proud of me, Pops?) And due to some offered free advice and counselling and such, I'm thinking about what might need to change.

I know that I need accountability... it's really the only thing keeping me going with this weight loss... so, you should stay tuned blog friends... I'm still going to be going to my doctor this month, but that all might be changing.

Financial challenge accepted.

How Not To Lose Weight

Soft food diets due to a root canal. It's pretty much trying to find foods to eat that aren't mashed potatoes and pasta...

Did I mention I have rosacea and dairy seems to be a big trigger? So yeah, no yogurt...

I'm glad whey powder doesn't seem to have the same effect as normal dairy, so I can add some protein that way... otherwise, I'm eating scrambeled eggs and baby food..........

Literally......

Also, per dentist, I'm not allowed to workout very hard or very long because it causes blood pressure to go up and then there's all that pain in the tooth.... why does it have to center there, the throbbing pain.....

*sigh*

I'm starting to feel defeated

Last Published on January 13th

To quote my littlest nephew, "What the what???"

In the back of my mind, I kept on thinking... blog. You should blog. Come on, Joy, you have all of these emotions bundling up, things to say and share and give back... blog... do it... BLOG!!! But I didn't listen to the little voice inside my head. Instead I lived my life and went on and moved about and went crazy and found other ways to deal with things. The funny thing is, when I pulled this up, all I saw was "Last posted on January 13, 2013" and I really have no idea what i blogged about. What was it, blogging friends?

C'est la vie, I will update you anyway... sorry if I overlap (although chances are you've forgotten, too!).

hmmm... I took a break in January. A break from weighing in... a break from the dreaded scale... I hit this point where my feet wouldn't move another step on an elliptical. I couldn't push myself. I hit the proverbial wall and just the thought of getting on a scale made me want to vomit.

I wish I could say things have been great since, but unfortunately they haven't at all. I went up on the scale (due to muscle gain and water retention) and I'm still trying to get rid of that extra number. I know it wasn't a bad way to gain it, but it's still frustrating when you feel like you're backtracking. Going up on the scale was not what I was looking forward to. But since then I've gone down.

Although I did miss another weigh in... not by choice, though, or by wall hitting. But by actual vomiting. It was a rough few days (and day and a half off of work) and for several days I barely ate anything. It was less than stellar. Now I'm fighting with myself to get back to the gym... I got so used to not being there and my evenings are so much longer! ;o)

But I fight and continue... I learn and freak out at the thought of standing on a scale, but I do it anyway...

Little Victories

In conjunction with the last post where I talked about wanting to run and stuff...

Treadmills were rough on the knees... and the back... after the inflamed disk, I've been VERY cautious with anything that caused an impact on my joints (read: I haven't walked or been on a treadmill or used anything other than an elliptical in a very long time.

Until last night.

Last night I did a 15 minute warm up and cool down on the treadmill... I signed up to do the Nashville Color Run in March and I figured I needed my body to start getting ready for it.

Today? NO PAIN!!!!!

I mean other than the aches from an early morning Zumba class ;)

13 Pounds and Running

So random, right?

I hit a milestone that I'm still uncomfortable really talking about in just under 13 pounds... how that for vague? But I told myself a few months ago that about 13 pounds from now, that when I start trying to run again. It's about 45 pounds off of my 5'6" frame (I'm down 33.2 as of right now) which (according to "them") is like taking 135 pounds off of my knees...

I may have fought myself from using an explicative in my head just then (sorry Mom and Dad)

I think that's the first time I've done that calculation and I realized what that total calculation will be in the end... *phew*...

Back to running... I've always been determined to do it. I've attempted and stopped a few times in the last couple of years (shin splints, laziness, knees); but this time I really want to get it going. I've read lots and lots of articles and I've realized that it's one of the most effective workouts and frankly, I feel like runners are the epitome of healthy.

Don't ask me why I think that... it doesn't even make sense in my own mind... I think maybe I've been jealous for years of all of those people that put on a pair of shoes and just go.............

I'm trying to convince myself that I can be down those pounds in the next month if I really buckle down, and then I run.

Who's with me?